Friday, August 27, 2010

Baby Dance

Ok so I have been having a lot of dreams lately bout having another baby. I guess you could say that I have the baby bug and want to do the baby dance. After all Jayden will be 3 next year so it's time to give him a sibling, either a lil sister or a lil brother. I really want to have another baby.

I can't help it, they are just so cute and I knw they are a lot of work and money. But hey it's what I really want. I knw it will happen. I know I will be a mommy again next year. And hopefully a wifey next year as well. So here's to my dreams and wishes coming true.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Hoping for a Miracle

So August just hasn't been my month at all. I'm hoping that September will be my month of miracles. I really need a job and I need one asap! I hate not having money and not being able to buy things or go on trips. This economy sucks big time! Seriously there needs to be way more jobs here and less houses.

I want to be in movies already so I can make the big bucks and get the fuck out of boresville that is Port St Lucie. Too damn boring here. There is nothing to do here what so ever. There are no jobs here. If I have to I will apply at jobs in other cities and hope they do relocation moving and stuff.

There is someone I really want to be with right now and he knws who he is! I love you baby and can't wait to start a family with you finally and finally be your wifey!

xoxo Sheena aka Shey

Monday, August 16, 2010

What Is True Love?

What is True Love?
True Love is finding that special person and wanting to be with them for the rest of your life. Even if you break up a few times, you still manage to find your way back to that same person. That really is true love.

I know that I have found my true love, cause no matter wat we have been through, we always manage to run back to one another and thank god for that special someone coming back into my life. This time I will not let him go and I hope he feels the same way bout me. No matter wat happens, no matter what obstacles we may face together, we will always be together. I can't think of anyone else to be with but him.

He has always made me smile and laugh when I've been down and depressed. He always manages to cheer me up and I love him and will always love him through thick and thin. He's the man for me. I can't wait to finally be in his arms. This NYE we will be together in each other's arms for the first time and I can't wait to see him. I've waited 5 years to see him and can't wait til Dec 26 this year to see him and be in his arms.

He is my Edward, My Stefan, My prince charming, My knight in shining armor, My Dimitri, My Eric. He's my world and my life and forever will be til death do us part. He know who he is!

xoxo Sheena

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Engaged And Planning Our Wedding...

Do you believe that dreams can come true? Well I do and I believe that they are coming true for me. After 5 years of being in love with the same man, we have come back together for the 3rd time. I believe this is gods way of saying we belong together and I now see that we do. We have been through a lot together and he won't hurt me again, he and I are so in love with each other, that our love for one another grows stronger each day. He is my life, my world and means the world to me. I couldn't have asked for a better man. Drew makes me smile and laugh.

He's the reason I am happy again and he's the reason for the smiles on my face and my laughter. Without him I would probably still be depressed or something. I love him too much and will not let him go ever again and he will not let me go ever again. We are happily engaged and have set our wedding day for December 31, 2011. We have loads to do before our big day and we are also gonna be ttc our first child together next month. I am so excited and can't wait! I also can't wait to be Mrs.Kunzeman. I know that we will be successful in whatever we do.


Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Shatter Me With Hope

It's only been a month since I've been with him. He makes me so happy and not like any guy I've dated in the past. I trust him with my life and I know that he won't hurt me again. We are so much in love and are happy together. He is my life my world and means alot to me. We know that we will be together forever and he will be the one that helps me with my son.

Before he came back into my life, I wasn't sure if I would ever love again. My heart was totally broken by the last guy and I thought that I would never be able to open my heart again to anyone. But on January 1, 2010 he came back into my life and I was willing to try again for the 3rd time with open arms. He will not let me go and I don't want him to. I will never let him go again. This time it is for real, we are made for each other and I know things will work out for us.

We are not gonna let anyone come between us and we will not let anyone tear us apart. We have too much love for one another and for each others' sons. We will not let anyone try to tear us or take our sons away from us. We will do whatever it takes and we will succeed. 2010 is our year to shine. We are forever in love. He is always in my dreams and I am always in his.

I can't wait to be his wife and he can't wait to be my husband. We will someday have more kids with each other. We hope to ttc one soon. He is my Edward, my prince charming my goth god and I love him to death.


Thursday, June 25, 2009

This Love

Well I believe that I have finally found me my Mr. Right, my Edward, my knight in shining armor, my prince charming. His name is Jon and he is such a sweetheart and very funny. He has me laughing everyday and I just have a feeling that he and I will work out. He is even willing to adopt Jayden and be his father since Jayden's own father doesn't seem to make any effort to come see him. So things look like they are going good. I have an interview next week at Hot Topic for a part time job, so hopefully I'll get the job and save so that Jayden and I can move out of my parents' house and get a place in West Palm. It is so boring in Port St Lucie. there is nothing to do here. There is only one club here and no mall. I have to drive like 20 to 30 mintues to the mall in Jensen Beach. So if me and Jon do hook up this weekend then things could be different and I will be happy again and finally be with a guy that wants the samethings I do. He makes decent money.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

This is how it Feels

So my ex has once again pissed me off. He keeps coming up with excuses when it comes to seeing his son. last time he came up to see him it was like a month or two ago and hasn't come since. He is so not fit to be a dad. He can't seem to get his priorities straight. I hate him and hopes that he burns in hell. I am going to get him for child support and I hope he pays up or I will take his ass to court. I can't stand guys like him and I am tired of his excuses. I am through dating hispanic guys. Hate them and would never date one ever again. Grr damn puerto rican!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Pissed Off

My ex is really pissing me off. He keeps giving me with excuses and I am so sick of his excuses. He hasn't come to see his son in ages and to be honest, he is not fit to be a father cause he never comes to doctor appointments he doesn't pay for shit when it comes to his son. My parents are the ones who paid for Jayden's circumsicion. He really should reinburst them for it. He needs to pay child support or give up his rights and I know he won't give his rights up. He seriously is a deadbeat dad. He doesn't have his priorities straight and he needs to grow the fuck up. He needs to know that Jayden comes first and friends and gf come last. Also he needs to change that damn display pic of his on myspace to one of him and Jayden and he needs to add more pics of Jayden and less pics of him and celebs

Monday, March 16, 2009

A Forbidden Love (Bella and Edward)

It was late and I was up in my room waiting for Edward to show up. He was taking out while Charlie was down at La Push visiting Billy.Since Charlie found out that Edward and I were getting married, he decided to give us time alone. Alice was really going overboard with our wedding. We really just wanted to go to Vegas and get married there, but I didn’t want to hurt Alice’s feelings, so I let her do the whole planning. I stared out at the night sky from my window, it was beautiful. The stars shining bright and the cool breeze passing by. It felt like hours that I was waiting for Edward to show up, but when I turned to go sit on my bed, he was there grinning.
"When did you get here?" I asked him.
"I’ve been here the whole time, I snook in and watched you." He told me.
I jumped on my bed and was bout to slap him for doing that, when he grabbed me and pulled me closer to him. He kissed me passionately and I felt weak in the knees. I just let him continue to kiss me, til I had to pull away to breathe. I looked at him and smirked. He let me go and I got my shoes on and we were off for a night of romance and mystery. I never know where he’s going to take me. He just surprises me. We drove off.
"Where are we going Edward?"
"It’s a surprise!"
I hated surprises and he knew that, but he still continued to surprise me. Last time he got me a car, before that he payed my tuition for college, after I kept telling him not to. But I guess that’s what I get for being so in love with a stubborn vampire. I was enjoying the scenary, when he stopped the car and pulled up to a quaint little restaurant. He got out the car, then came to my side and opened up the door for me. I got out of the car and he was holding my hand. We got into the restaurant and his family was there. I looked at him with a "what is going on" look. He laughed then filled me in on what was going on. I looked at Alice and glared at her. Alice decided to have a family dinner together. Though I knew I was the only one that was going to eat.
I was surprised to see that the Cullens actually ate. I had never seen them eat before and it was amazing at what they could eat. We talked bout the wedding and where Edward would take me on our honeymoon. It was like I had gone to heaven. Even Rosalie was talking to me like we were sisters.
After the dinner, Edward took me to our meadow and we laid down on the grass and looked up at the stars. It was very beautiful and a bit romantic. I looked over at him and he smiled. I wanted to 
know what was on his mind. I wanted to know what he was thinking.
"What are you thinking?" I asked him
"Nothing much really, just that I’m the luckiest guy to have such a beautiful fiancee!" He said to me.
I blushed when he told me that. I started laughing and thought that he could have had any other girl but he chose me. I was the luckiest girl to be engaged to such a goregous vampire. He leaned in and kissed me and I embraced his kiss. We were like this for awhile, when we heard a howl of a wolf. I leaned back to breath and then we both looked around and didn’t see no wolf, but I could tell Edward was getting upset. I knew it had to be Jacob.
"Edward, what is it?"
"Jacob’s jealous!"
"He had his chance!"
I giggled and then pinned Edward down and made out with him some more. He pushed me back and laughed. He lifted me up and put me on his back and we ran back to Charlie’s. When we got there, He knew Charlie would be waiting outside. He put me down.
"Hi dad!"
"Hey Bells, I have something to tell you"
"What is it dad?"
I looked at Charlie, I could see he looked a bit down. I had no clue what he was going to tell me, but I know it couldn’t have been good. I sat down on his crusier.
"Bells, I don’t know how to tell you this, but your mother and Phil were in a car accident and didn’t make it."
I went into shock, I talked to my mother not too long ago and things were fine. I fell off his car and burst into tears. Edward was at my side and I cried on his shoulders. I couldn’t believe that my mother was dead. Who could have done such a thing to her.
I walked into the house with Edward by myside. I wouldn’t let him go. I was so upset. Why? Why did they have to die? Phil was so young and my mother was young at heart. All I could do was cry in Edward’s arms. He comfort me and told me everything would be alright. How can it be fine, when my mother is dead? I didn’t know what to do anymore, I just wish that it was me instead of My mom and Phil. I don’t know how long I cried and I don’t remember Edward bringing me in my room. I was so tired from crying, that I passed out. I could hear Edward talking to Carlisle on the phone.
I don’t know what they were talking about, but I bet it wasn’t good. When I woke up Edward was still there. He gave a weak smile.
"Morning sunshine!"
I looked at him and didn’t feel like myself. I sighed
"What is going on?"
He looked at me and told me to get dress and to go down stairs, there was a surprise waiting for me. I got dressed and went downstairs. I was shocked to see them sitting in the living room with Charlie. I couldn’t believe it, why would Charlie tell me they were dead, when they were right there. I had no idea what was going on.
"MOM! You’re alive, Dad told me you had been in an accident and were killed!"
Renee looked at me, then to Charlie and then back at me.
"Sweety, you’re father was playing a joke on you, he didn’t mean it that way, I wanted to surprise you and told him to come up with something, but I didn’t know he would say that. I’m sorry hun!"
I went over to my dad and smacked him in the face, then punched him for playing such a mean joke on me. After I went over to my mother and gave her a big bear hug and looked up at Edward. He had to have known this was coming and didn’t bother to tell me this unless he couldn’t tell me, which ever one it was, I was still upset bout it.
Edward took me back to his place, so that he and I could talk about the events to come. We spent hours in his room, when Alice came in. She looked at us and smirked. I threw a pillow at her and she fell. Edward and I started laughing at her, then she got up and threw the pillow back at me but Edward caught it and slammed it at her and told her to get out. She wouldn’t leave, so we ended up tackling her, when Emmett came in to see what all the commotion was about. He laughed and joined in on tackling Alice for bothering us. He ended up dragging her out of Edward’s room and closed the door behind him.
I looked at Edward and he was still laughing. I started up laughing again too. It felt great to be laughing again and doing so with Edward. Eventually we stopped laughing and got down to business. We had 2 weeks left before the wedding and still had to put the finishing touches on the plans. The invitations were sent out months ago. Alice had my dress put up somewhere safe along with her and Rosalie’s dresses. The next thing I knew I passed out on Edward’s bed. I was pale, like I was anemic or something.
He went to get Carlisle and bring him in. Carlisle looked at me and knew exactly what was wrong with me. He told Edward I was dehydrated and exhausted. He recommended that I stay over night and get some good rest. I could never refuse that chance. I loved spending time with 
my soon to be vampire husband. Edward let me sleep and went down stairs to talk to the rest of his family.
When I woke up the next day, Edward was sitting next to me. I looked up at him and he kissed me on the forehead. He told me that I had been feverish the night before and that I was to rest to save my strength for the big day. I frowned at him, cause I didn’t know that I was like that, if I would have known that I would have stayed home. I guess he could tell and told me that it was fine.
Carlisle came in to see how I was doing. I told him that I was fine and just hungry. He told us to come to the kitchen and eat. We went down to the Kitchen. Alice and Rosalie were both at the table chatting bout something. I couldn’t make out what they were talking about. As soon as Edward and I walked towards the table, their discussion stopped.
"Hey Bella, how you doing?" asked Alice
"I’m better!" I told Alice
"Alice, Rosalie don’t you two have something you were going to do?" Asked Carlisle.
Alice and Rosalie nodded and they left the kitchen. Giving Edward and I privacy. Carlisle had made a big thing of pancakes and Eggs with sausage for me and Edward. I was surprised. Carlisle was a really good cook. I smiled at him and complimented him on his cooking. He blushed and told me thank you, then he walked out of the kitchen to let Edward and I have time to talk.
I scarfed down the pancakes,eggs, and sausages. Edward looked at me as I ate and laughed.
"What’s so funny?"
"I never seen a girl eat that fast before!"
I smirked at Edward and told him that I haven’t eaten in days and to stop laughing. He apologized and let me finish my breakfast.
After breakfast, Alice and Rosalie decided to take me shopping. They were getting tired of seeing me in the same clothes. I had no say apparently, as my parents were in on it too. Don’t get me wrong I love Alice and Rosalie, they’re like sisters to me, but their idea of shopping is putting me in stuff that I would never wear.
Rosalie put me in a shimmer red dress and thought that it would be perfect for special occassions. I looked at myself in the mirror with the dress on and I was amazed at how I looked with it. I looked like a character out of a movie. I smiled and thought that with this dress, I could get Edward to do anything with me. I gave an evil grin and laughed.
Next Alice put me in a sexy top and short black skirt. I looked and was shocked, I actually 
looked like a girl for once. I laughed and thanked her. After we were done shopping and they bought me my clothes, they took me to lunch and we talked bout the wedding and the future. Rosalie still didn’t want me to be turned into a vampire, but she was understanding why I wanted to be one. Though she thought I would regret it. I assured her that it is for the best. She smiled and hugged me.
When we got back to their house, Edward was waiting for me. He asked me if I had a good time and I told him I did and enjoyed it a lot for a change. He laughed and figured I would. He kissed me and I embraced his kiss. He stopped and looked at me.
"I have to get you home now, you know how Charlie will get if you don’t come home!"
"I know, I know," I sighed.
I thanked Alice and Rosalie for a wonderful time and hugged them before leaving their place. When I got home, Charlie was waiting for me. I got out of the car with my new clothes and went and hugged Charlie. Edward stood there and smiled.
"Did you have a good time with Alice and Rosalie, Bells?" Charlie asked me.
I nodded and turned to Edward, he nodded, then we walked inside the house. Edward and Charlie sat down on the couch, while I went up stairs to put on my new clothes so Charlie could see what I got. I decided to try on the dress first. I went downstairs to model it for both of them. Edward’s mouth dropped opened and I laughed. He was speechless and didn’t know what to say. Charlie laughed.
"Bells, I think this dress is perfect, Edward is speechless he doesn’t know what to say!"
I laughed and nodded, I went back upstairs to try on the top and the skirt with the black boots. I walked back downstairs and they looked again. Still Edward was speechless and didn’t know what to say. My father laughed again, he thought it was hilarious to see Edward not say anything. I giggled and went up to Edward.
"Are you ok Edward?"
"I-I’m fine, you l-look beautiful!"
"Thanks!" I giggled.
That night I couldn’t sleep, I was so nervous about the wedding. I sat up and he was sitting near the window looking out at the stars. I got up and went over to the window.
"What are you thinking?" I asked
"I was just thinking about what’s to come next."

I sighed and looked at the stars as well. In a matter of days my human life will be over and I will be starting my life as a vampire. I know that he still didn’t want me to be one, but he had made the deal with me long time ago so he had to stick to his end of the deal.
We just kept looking outside. I looked out towards the woods and saw someone out there and I was going to tell Edward, when he stood up and told me to quietly go to his car with him. I looked at him and he looked back at me and saw the same person. He knew who it was but wanted to get me out of my house and to a safe place. I left Charlie a note and we left.
Edward called Alice and told her to have everyone down in the dining room for a meeting. When we arrived at his place, they were all waiting for us. I looked at my vampire family and I had a worried look on my face. Rosalie came to my side and hugged me. She told me not to worry and that things will be fine. We all sat at the table and Edward and Alice told us what was going on.
Someone from the Volutri was stalking me and watching me. They were seeing if I was still human or not. That really worried me and I was scared. Why did they have to stalk me? Were they trying to kill me? Carlisle looked at Edward and they looked at me bothing nodding. They grabbed me and brought me into Edward’s room. I looked at them.
"What’s going on?" I asked them
"The Volutri, as we figured want to kill you," Said Carlisle
I looked at them frightened. Edward took me in his arms and kissed me before he spoke.
"This can’t wait anymore, we have to do this tonight!"
I was lost I didn’t know what they were talking about.
Edward laid me on his bed and told me not to be afraid, that he won’t hurt me, but I might feel a lil pinch. I nodded, then felt his breathe on my neck, before I knew it, he had bite me and I could feel it begin. I was in pain and screaming. Edward and Carlisle at both sides of me, were both holding my hands and told me things would be fine and to calm down.
I could feel my heart slowing down and the venom of Edward go through my body and to my heart. I closed my eyes and my heart stopped beating. They stayed by my side, until I woke up and could tell I wasn’t human no more, I smiled at them and told them I was hungry. Carlisle and Edward took me downstairs and the rest of them saw the vampire me and welcomed me. Afterwards Edward and Alice took me hunting.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Jaydie Boo

My how time flies! Jayden is goin to be 8months this weekend and then in 4 months he'll be a year. He is getting so big. Poor thing had a fever of 103.6 yesterday. It's either from the teething or from him having a growth spurt. Now his fever is down to 101.We are giving him tylenol and gave him some chamomille tea so hopefully the fever will go down to normal soon. I would hate to have to take him to the doctors if it doesn't go down. Poor fella just wants to sleep cause he doesn't feel well but he is still a happy baby. He is surrounded by those who really love him. He can tell who loves him and who doesn't. I'm guessing his weight, he's got to be just about 20 pounds now. Though we won't know until next month when he goes for a check up. Last time he was 18 and a quarter pound and 28 inches. But that was a month ago so I don't know how much he weighs now. He can sit up on his own. He still refuses to crawl. We think he will go straight to walking. He just loves his cousins Heidi and Emily and his auntie Vanessa and Uncle Ony to death. Everytime he sees them he gets all giddy. He definetly love his mama, nana, and paka. He is the most beautiful baby in the world. No other baby is as beautiful as he is. Seriously he could be on cover of parenting magazines or anything. When he gets older he can be whatever he wants to be. If he wanted to be a model or actor I would so support him in that 100%. He is my pride and joy and no one can take him from me. He doesn't go anywhere without me.And he never will until he is old enough too. He is a future twilight and harry potter fan!